Returning to blogging

Hi, I don't know who are still keeping up with blogging or reading blogs but I'm sure I wasn't. Time has passed and I haven't blogged for almost three years, I suppose.

Recently, I have received emails about people who commented on my old post which leads me to reading my own old blogs. I have realized that they were very bad blogs. Hahaha. The other reason that brings me back to blogging is because that I feel there is a need to practice my English as I will be sitting for my IELTS exam for the 4th time. A friend told me that by blogging I can improve my English writing or composition I guess.

Up to this state, I have a lot of ideas of what I want to write and have a lot of interesting stories to tell. There is just too much that I can't get them in order and put them in proper words and sentences. Or maybe i don't have proper or good enough vocabulary to describe the actual feeling and happenings. I have been in a lot of dilemma and seems like there are a lot of things disturbing me. Or maybe I'm just not organized enough and too lazy.

Up to this date, I'm still very dependent on everyone and everything around me. I still don't or can't make up my mind and make a decision in my life and a path I would like to take. Some people have a goal in their life and make their way through it through rocks and pebbles. I do have a goal or you should say, TOO many goals in life that i want to achieve, but in what way to achieve them? I don't know. As I have just mentioned, maybe I depend on other people to achieve what I want and thinking they will help me to do so.

Things and thoughts and life has been going through my head at this moment. I do not deny that I love to spend time doing unproductive things like watching movies, dramas, going to theme parks, parties, clubbing, the beach and hanging out with my friends a lot. If it is possible, I hope to do that everyday, but I also know that is "impossible" as I'm not one of those lucky people who can do so. I know I need to work to survive and live on while doing things that I want to do. Hence, my feeling at the moment is..... 24 hrs a day is not enough at all especially I love to spend time sleeping too.

Sometimes I just wish life could be much simpler than this. I'm not going through depression just laziness..... Hahaha.. Will try to write tomorrow again.